Quickly Approaching Insanity by angied on Blogster

Someone, please help me. I am doped up on nerve pills; consequently, I have no idea just how coherent this will be. However, being the fighter that I am, I will give it my best shot. The first thing that you might need to know in order to understand my dilemma is that I have a behavioral disorder. I am compulsive obsessive. Water spots on my sink will cause me to hyperventilate; spots on my bathroom mirrors will make my hair stand up like Mcduff's when he and the Devil cat are in combat;
the fringe on my rugs must be orderly, and all items must be in their designated space. Crazy, huh?
Workmen came Monday to replace all my carpeting with wood flooring. Larry has allergies. Silly me-couldn't get rid of the animals so out with the carpet and in with the wood. I thought the workmen would be as I am. One room at a time, all orderly and sufficient. Not so. I have furniture piled on furniture, boxes upon boxes, glassware stacked to the ceiling. There is not a bed in the house upon which to rest our weary bones. Not one room in my house has remained untouched by chaos. I can't cook, for so many things are piled on my stove. Even my microwave lies beneath the mountain of litter. The use of my computer is the only compensation that I have at the moment. Unfortunately, I don't know how long this luxury will last. If you see that I have not been blogging, you will understand that the battlefield has moved to my last citadel of defense and totally destroyed my small remaining fortress.
How long will this struggle continue? The workmen say a week. I don't believe that order to this destruction could possibly be achieved in one week, 7 days, 168 hours, 10,080 minutes. Even if against all odds that they could possible finish in this time, I may be in the mental hospital, and I'm not for sure that computer access will be available to me there.
If you don't hear from me, please send any donations that you see fit to any organization doing research in compulsive obsessive behavior disorders.

16 comments on Quickly Approaching Insanity

Blogsterella said 10 months ago
Slow down Nelly!!!! Take a big breath and try to relax!!! I think you should take a few days away from the house while the work is being done. Stay with a friend for a few days - come home to check on the work but don't stay there if it's causing so much stress. Talk to your husband about it.
In the meantime, put on your coat and go for a nice walk xxx
angied said 10 months ago
I'm afraid that with these nerve pills in my system that I might get lost! Of course, my family would probably not even call the police. I know that I am being a source of pain for them. Larry has been absolutely flying out of the door in the mornings. I think that I may have to go to a friends--if I can find someone to drive me.[LOL]
martne said 10 months ago
I agree. Get away from all that stress and confusion until the work is over. [HEART]
frogfenatic said 10 months ago
Hang in there Angie! Send some of your organization this way and I will put it to good use! This might be a good time for a vacation! Thinking of you!
angied said 10 months ago
Honey, if you could see this mess, you wouldn't want any of my organization skills. Larry says that I know nothing of the "real" world. I wonder where in the sam hill he thinks that I am living---in lunar space???????[LOL][HEART]
janetk said 10 months ago
Can you leave the house for the seven days? It might help not to see what's being done to your home. I have OCD, too, although it affects me differently and my case is not as severe.[HEART]
angied said 10 months ago
Have you ever had remodeling done? I think that men just try to think of things to make the women miserable. When I had painting done, the same thing happened. Did they do one room at a time? No, they tore absolutely everything up-all ceilings and woodwork first, then the walls. I wish there were some women carpenters in the area. Surely they would know how to do things without all the mess![LOL][LOL]
magicdragonfly2 said 10 months ago
[OHMY] It'll be over soon.You'll be so happy with the result's.We have wood floor's and it work's well for those of us who have allergie's.I could never,ever send Spider[kitty] or Lucy [black lab.] away.They are our family.[HEART]
To bad you couldn't get away for a week.But if your like me,I have to be there to make sure it get's done the way I want.Now if it was summer you could rent a camper,or just go camping,animal's and all..[LOL]Don't OD on nerve pill's Angie...[TONGUE]Be safe[HEART]
angied said 10 months ago
The floors that are down are lovely! I am just anal--drat that CPBD pitfall. My son is in the nursing program and monitors my pill taking religiously. I think he is counting the little suckers each night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!![LOL]
magicdragonfly2 said 10 months ago
[LOL]I was only punking on you Angie about the OD thing.My daughter is a nurse and does the same by me.[LOL].They love us..
[HEART]
I have Anxiety an aftermath from shock at loss of three loved one's in 4year span..Never seeked help,I was strong,me I can handle anything thrown at me...Sure I was,NOT!!!
I can go day's and don't need them.Then bang,it can be a day when I'll get one attack after another.Caused by happy, sad or stress.
So I know what you mean by something such as CPBD,that emotion which one has no control over.[SAD]Aren't those little white pill's wonderful..[SMILE]
Floor's will be completed soon.So easy to keep clean.But oh no [ROLLEYES] those dust bunnie's with wood floor's.[LOL]
angied said 10 months ago
My carpet was an offwhite, very light, except in the corner where one couldn't get a vacuum or a shampooer. I think that the dust bunnines will be a pleasant change--at least for a time!!!![TONGUE]
magicdragonfly2 said 10 months ago
[LOL] I agree...[LOL]
donnamg said 10 months ago
Oh, so much going on for you right now! No wonder you need the pills! If it's any consolation, even if you or someone didn't have CPBD, a house upside-down with unfinished work being done by strangers would be causing a lot of stress and anxiety, so you are not alone in that! Careful with the pills, no OD'ing! But, with so much going on and the effect it's having on you, let the pills help to calm you. Keep repeating to yourself, "It will be over soon, it will be over soon..." and go visiting or for walks or to a movie or to lunch with a friend each day to get away from it all a little bit until it's over. If you can get away completely, better still! Hang in there, it is only temporary, things will be back to normal soon. [SMILE][HEART]
angied said 10 months ago
My son and I are getting out today for some fun and relaxation. I'm not going to take my pill until I come back to the mess. We were thinking about seeing a movie, but he has to work at 10pm and the movie is showing too late. But, we will eat and do something else nice.[HEART][HEART]
elfie33 said 10 months ago
Hang in there hun, I'm sure the madness can only last so long. I came home yesterday to my toilet sitting on the front porch, I think I'll take your house anyday as long as the plumbing works...[LOL][LOL][LOL][LOL][LOL]Althought at the site of my house you would most likely come after me with a sharp object...[LOL][LOL][HUH][WINK][HEART]
skyeblue said 10 months ago
Shake hands with another obsessive compulsive who likes the fringe all
in one direction, everything must be in its designated place, and who likes peace and orderliness. I can't help it!
Two years ago I had a contractor come in and do some work on the house--it drove me totally nuts to see everything in disarray, messy, amd strewn about.
I almost went nuts--and didn't have nerve pills to numb me through it.
I understand your dilemma completely!! Sue[OHMY]